Tying things up.
This is a weird sort of defiance that even I don't understand.
It's kind of like this - You gimme exams, make me study, stop me from going online for two whole weeks?
You made my two weeks miserable as heck?
Now that exams are over, I'mma go online and I'm gonna SPEND HOURS online. Even if I have nothing to do on the net, I'm at the computer just to be online. I'll show you!
And I don't even know who 'You' is.
So anyway.
For the first time since I started SAM, I actually really studied. And I mean really really studied.
You know, the lock-yourself-in-your-room-become-a-two-week-hermit kind of study.
Other than a steamboat dinner with friends, it was a 'no' to anyone who suggested anything other than learning about photons and electrons and cells in my body.
Back in high school, I used to be a Two-Week Hermit all the time.
Even if I almost never do my homework, don't even have the exercise books we're supposed to have, got the teacher so exasperated she made me stand one period, daydream during classes and was completely blur about things (hence the two-week pre-exam intense cramming), I'd at least put in effort during exams.
This year, however, had been a slack-all-you-want year for me.
I'd go to class blur, don't understand what little notes I copy during class, return from college and go back the next day without having my bag opened once, and go in for exams still being blur.
Ahhhh, my highschool self would've been disappointed.
So anyway, I slaved my ass off for the trials, so if I still fail/borderline pass, then you know, it's meant to be.
All the above, is a very circuitous way of getting to the main point of the post.
And yeah, "circuitous" is not a word I knew all along (it means 'very round-about', by the way). I am, unfortunately, in the middle of memorising as many SAT words as I can. Saaaaaaaaaad huh?
So like I said, I was surfing the net just for the sake of surfing the net, showing defiance to the "you" who made me take exams, and was reading a stranger's blog, and she was studying for the SAT.
How do you study for the SAT??
She was panicking because she couldn't finish preparing, which made me very VERY nervous because the test is next week and I have done zilch preparations, save for ONE test practice!
How how how?
Trials just ended today, and now I have to go and prepare for another test taking place nest week.
Then two weeks after the SAT, I have the TOEFL to sit for.
Two weeks after that, I'll be sitting for the SAT Subject Tests.
Two DAYS after that, the Dreaded Finals.
The be-all-and-end-all of SAM.
The screw-this-up-and-you-just-threw-away-RM20k-of education.
The one that determines your future, and your past (y'know, whether your past 11 months have been a complete waste of time).
So yeah.
Five different exams (including this trial exam), all within the space of 1.5 months.
As such, I have written a note to myself, telling Present-Chooi that she will NOT let Future-Chooi down.
She will make full use of every single day of the next one month.
She will study like she has never before.
She will redeem all the C's and D's she has so far gotten for SAM.
She will not get the TER of 60 that her ex-physics teacher had predicted of her class (which is virtually useless, what self-respecting university would accept you then?).
(My ex-physics teacher has very uninspiring expectations of us. Prior to the first common test, he told me I was going to fail the paper, which I did NOT grrrrrr. Then when I got a very average result during common test 3, he told me to ask my parents for a car, which got me thinking, "Had I really been that bad?")
So okay, I will try harder to get better grades.
My motivation?
The knowledge that after this one month of gruelling studying, I'd be free for the next 9 months.
Nine months!
Assuming things go the way I hope, of course.
So.
Wish me a lot of luck, hope that nothing interesting and potentially distracting will take place for the next one month, and pray my determination and self-discipline will not crumble by the day.
That is all!
It's kind of like this - You gimme exams, make me study, stop me from going online for two whole weeks?
You made my two weeks miserable as heck?
Now that exams are over, I'mma go online and I'm gonna SPEND HOURS online. Even if I have nothing to do on the net, I'm at the computer just to be online. I'll show you!
And I don't even know who 'You' is.
So anyway.
For the first time since I started SAM, I actually really studied. And I mean really really studied.
You know, the lock-yourself-in-your-room-become-a-two-week-hermit kind of study.
Other than a steamboat dinner with friends, it was a 'no' to anyone who suggested anything other than learning about photons and electrons and cells in my body.
Back in high school, I used to be a Two-Week Hermit all the time.
Even if I almost never do my homework, don't even have the exercise books we're supposed to have, got the teacher so exasperated she made me stand one period, daydream during classes and was completely blur about things (hence the two-week pre-exam intense cramming), I'd at least put in effort during exams.
This year, however, had been a slack-all-you-want year for me.
I'd go to class blur, don't understand what little notes I copy during class, return from college and go back the next day without having my bag opened once, and go in for exams still being blur.
Ahhhh, my highschool self would've been disappointed.
So anyway, I slaved my ass off for the trials, so if I still fail/borderline pass, then you know, it's meant to be.
All the above, is a very circuitous way of getting to the main point of the post.
And yeah, "circuitous" is not a word I knew all along (it means 'very round-about', by the way). I am, unfortunately, in the middle of memorising as many SAT words as I can. Saaaaaaaaaad huh?
So like I said, I was surfing the net just for the sake of surfing the net, showing defiance to the "you" who made me take exams, and was reading a stranger's blog, and she was studying for the SAT.
How do you study for the SAT??
She was panicking because she couldn't finish preparing, which made me very VERY nervous because the test is next week and I have done zilch preparations, save for ONE test practice!
How how how?
Trials just ended today, and now I have to go and prepare for another test taking place nest week.
Then two weeks after the SAT, I have the TOEFL to sit for.
Two weeks after that, I'll be sitting for the SAT Subject Tests.
Two DAYS after that, the Dreaded Finals.
The be-all-and-end-all of SAM.
The screw-this-up-and-you-just-threw-away-RM20k-of education.
The one that determines your future, and your past (y'know, whether your past 11 months have been a complete waste of time).
So yeah.
Five different exams (including this trial exam), all within the space of 1.5 months.
As such, I have written a note to myself, telling Present-Chooi that she will NOT let Future-Chooi down.
She will make full use of every single day of the next one month.
She will study like she has never before.
She will redeem all the C's and D's she has so far gotten for SAM.
She will not get the TER of 60 that her ex-physics teacher had predicted of her class (which is virtually useless, what self-respecting university would accept you then?).
(My ex-physics teacher has very uninspiring expectations of us. Prior to the first common test, he told me I was going to fail the paper, which I did NOT grrrrrr. Then when I got a very average result during common test 3, he told me to ask my parents for a car, which got me thinking, "Had I really been that bad?")
So okay, I will try harder to get better grades.
My motivation?
The knowledge that after this one month of gruelling studying, I'd be free for the next 9 months.
Nine months!
Assuming things go the way I hope, of course.
So.
Wish me a lot of luck, hope that nothing interesting and potentially distracting will take place for the next one month, and pray my determination and self-discipline will not crumble by the day.
That is all!
Labels: School n' Stuff
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