Word of the Day - Addiction

Addiction. noun.
- The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something, as in Chooiyen having this compulsive need to go online for not less than 4 hours a day, everyday.

Yes, L's and G's, I have reverted back to the days when I would suffer from serious withdrawal symptoms if denied access to the internet. Truly sad.

Back then I seeked help from a professional (um, complained to another fellow net-addict) and was told to go cold turkey for a bit, and I did, and wonder of wonders, I was cured! I could go on for three days without feeling the need to press that On/Off button.

Old habits never die.

It's like this. I would tell myself, "Right, just ONE HOUR," and I even set an alarm, but it just never works.

Real conversation -

"I spent 5 hours on the computer la, didn't study at all."

"Me also loh. Five hours non-stop you know."

"Haih. If I continue playing games on weekends like this, SPM sure fail."

"CHEH. You spent 5 hours on a weekend? I spent 5 hours everyday la!"

"...." (Looks at me bug-eyed.)


You'd think I'd get bored of it. You'd think by the 3rd hour, I'd have nothing else to do.

How very wrong. In fact, logging off the computer at the end of the 4th hour is done rather reluctantly, like 'awww I still have SO MUCH left to do, do I really have to wait til tomorrow?'

Giving a friend my MSN password would never do - I don't even sign in to Windows Live Messenger.

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An indication of a new month coming, is getting a new issue of the Reader's Digest in the mail.

It seemed not too long ago, right, that we got the September issue, and now we've already gotten the October issue, and before you know it, I'll be getting the November issue, and we'll be sitting for the SPM, then I'd get the December issue, and another year will be over.

How fast time flies.

But that's not the point.

The only reason I brought up the topic of Reader's Digest, is because I finally found the most, most appropriate word to describe a person I know.

Complex character, and not at all a pleasant one.

The word I had been looking for - "psychopath".

On so many occassions I have wondered to myself, how can this person so readily do something, and yet not show any guilt/remorse, and how can this same person say "sorry ah" then proceed to laugh and not show any sincerity.

Or how this person so skillfully manipulated others into giving in to this person's needs, or how this person would do something on the pretence of doing it for YOUR sake, but you know who gets the better share of things at the end. Yealah, just recently la.

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On a lighter note, I did not fail my chemistry!

Even better, I actually managed a B!

Right, not something you lot would be satisfied with, you probably want nothing less than an A2, but it's way more than I was expecting.

Considering the fact that I did so SO badly in my second paper. Half the paper blank. Tears almost falling right after the collection of exam papers. Classmate going "Eh don't scare me ah don't cry!". (And, I did not cry. Pffft.) A 'B' is definitely a surprise.

Maybe I should study less.

I put in truckloads more of effort into this exam, and I'm getting back mediocre results.

I didn't put in as much effort last few exams, and I fared better.

So to my friends-whom-I-hang-out-with-all-the-time, now you know why I don't tell you my exam marks. You think it's cause I did so good that I'm trying to be humble. No no no. It's really 'cause I mustn't embarrass myself, you see.

Right, ciao!
(Me, trying to update more often.)

Dum-dee Dum

We shall all have a new rock band to look forward to now – Supernova!

I thought it would end at 9.00 pm as usual, but then halfway into the show I realized, oh shit, it'd be ending at 10 pm tonight, darn, haven't started on Physics yet.

The only solution? Cram everything in during comercials.

When they've already axed Magni (yeay!) and Toby, there were only two left.

By then we were already a bundle of nerves, with our fingers crossed ultra tight.

Seconds before Supernova revealed their new frontperson, there were talks of "OH SHIT I have to go to the toilet" and "PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE" and we were practically dying from the suspense.

Fortunately I don't have to boycott them, cause... LUKAS WON!


Uh-huh! Weird, gothic, freaky Lukas Rossi!

It was wonderful, we I had tears of joy! My sister was rooting for Dilana, well too bad for her.

Dilana is great, she has an amazing voice, and look at this.


She looks a tad vampiric in that, but there's no way you can say she hasn't got the rocker attitude. There's this strain in her voice that I totally dig. And her version of 'Mother Mother' was cooler than cool. Energetic, and watching her you almost feel like jumping on stage and go crazy along with her.

But Lukas, man some of his performances were amazing.

Especially when he did 'Lithium', I had goosepimples, he even did better than Marty! (You must know, I am a HUUUGE fan of Marty's.)
He did the first verse slow, then he burst into the chorus with the stage lights suddenly glowing bright. I thought, wow, epic.

Lukas is amazing in the way that he takes songs everybody knows, but he shreds them apart, then puts them back together, and make it sound almost better than the original!

Like how he did this slow, dark-ish version of 'Living On A Prayer', you almost think gawd how can he do that, 'cause the original had been the kind of song you nod your head and move along to.

Though there are people saying how the show was kind of a fraud, because the audiences were led to believe that their votes mattered in the final decision, when in actual fact the winner had been predetermined since the beginning of the show.

There are also people going on about how the only reason Supernova did not choose Dilana or Magni or Storm was because they were too good. They would do great things if they embarked on a solo career, instead of being tied to Supernova.

Weeeeeell.

I wonder if anyone else noticed, that Tommy Lee had been throwing a whole lot of sexual innuendos directed at Storm Large ("Storm Triple-X-tra Large!"), and that not ONE single song from Motley Crue, Metellica or Guns N' Roses had been performed?

Bad past, maybe.

All in all, now I've got nothing to look forward to on Wednesdays and Thursdays. (It's comforting to know I'm not the only one around here excited over the show. Else, I'd sound pretty stupid. It IS only a show where past-their-prime rockers elect a new frontperson for their new band.)

(I remember pledging that I wouldn't watch Rockstar last month, 'cause I wanted myself to study, hah, taking on more than I could chew. Not watch Rockstar? How can?)

Came home from tuition Friday night, tv was switched on and it was showing One In A Million, so I just planted myself on the sofa and watched.
Paul's comments on Faizal's take on RemyZero's 'Save Me'?
"That was like watching Rockstar."

Pffffttt. Faizal's performance can be anything, but definitely not likened to performances from Rockstar! Worlds apart!

It's time like these you remember why people always think everything from Malaysia is inferior. Musical talents wise, it kind of is. I couldn't say ANY of the performances from One In A Million, or Malaysian Idol had been memorable, 'cept maybe a few by Jaclyn Victor.

(I hope when, IF, Supernova comes to Malaysia, I would not be stuck at camp, servicing the nation!) (National Service lah.)

P/S. If you have not been watching Rockstar: INXS / Supernova, well, you SHOULD HAVE. You would've so so enjoyed it. Now it's over and well too bad for you!

P/P/S. Thank heavens for Star World.

Can you spell ANTICIPATION?

If anybody asks, yeah I'm still alive. Hah.

Just too busy spending the afternoons making sure I don't screw my trial exams up too bad.
But it's not working!

Random declaration -
If Magni wins Rockstar: Supernova, I will will WILL boycott all future efforts of Magni-fronted-Supernova!

What do the people see in him?

Keeping my fingers crossed for the other three.

Especially Lukas.

(Try typing 'Lukas' in Google Image and what comes out? Lukas Podolski. Pffft.)









WAS a Dilana supporter, then was rooting for Toby, now I'm all for Lukas, because his cover versions of late has been amazing.

Initially Lukas seemed like this freaky gothic kid who'd be better off fronting My Chemical Romance or something, and it seemed highly unlikely he'd front a band like Supernova, but I guess it's like the plate of curry mee that comes with a half a cut lime, that you sqeeze the juice all over the mee. It's an added twist, and absolutely tasty.
(I'm slightly better at analogies now, haha!)

Here's hoping Lukas, Dilana and Toby will get to the finals. From there, whoever wins, doesn't really matter much.

I know the finale's gonna be an awesome show!

I'll not be studying Physics tomorrow night, that's for sure!


(What's pathetic is when you devote an entire post to a reality tv show.)